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Moments and wishes.

Hi! Long time no see. This blog really isn't updated, but I felt like posting here. For those of you who don't know, I'm living in France at the moment, in a village called Caen, which is in Normandie. Really liking it here, learning and studying french and yeah, trying to figure out life I guess, haha. Trying not to think too much and worry too much. More doing and feeling good about myself is kind of what I'm going for. I'm wondering though, when will I ever be satisfied and when will I ever be truly happy? When will I ever be satisfied and happy enough? What does it take to feel confident saying "I am happy with my life and how things are right now"? And even "I am really happy with my life and how things are right now", and how does one know? I feel a bit stupid asking, but I guess I actually don't really know. Does anyone know?


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Anyway, this is what I want my life to consist of as much as possible right now and the time following.

▲ Going to the market that finds place every Saturday almost right where I live, where I can buy fresh vegetables and fruits among many other things. So far I lovelovelove Daphne's vegan booth, the booth with take-away pizza, this vietnamese guy who sells vegan Samoussa and two other vegetable booths I find myself going back to every time. Who knew this kind of social grocery shopping could be so much fun? Not to mention a great opportunity to improve my french.
▲ Babysitting for Assa, my biggest fan, for the lovely couple I stayed with the first week here in Caen.
▲ Talking to Nicole, the lovely old lady of who's house I live in the backyard, in a little house among the plants and the flowers and the cats and the hedgehogs (and the insects...)
▲ Admiring the sky and the pretty flowers as I walk down Alle des Fleurs in my neighborhood Quartier des Fleurs, not forgetting to appreciate the relatively warm weather that makes sure it almost never snows here during winter.


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(Roughly translated)
/ There are flowers everywhere, for those who want to see them. - Henri Matisse
/ Later is too late, our life is now. - Jacques Prvert
/ There is only one happiness in this life, to love and to be loved. - George Sand


▲ Taking a break from social medias such as Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram and more. Less procrastination (I hope) and more time to do the things I mention in this post.
▲ Making hummus to have on top of a slice of newly baked bread that I buy at the Boulangerie, just a few blocks away. Just thinking of it makes me hungry...


#yoga #yogainspiration

A healthy bite



▲ People saying their impressed by my french. I have come such a long way with this language that once was impossible for me to understand, yet I have so much more to learn, haha. Learning a language is surprisingly hard, really. Hopefully though, I'll continue to feel that it's all worth it, despite the frustration that comes along in so many forms and variations during this period of learning and improving. I really admire those who start learning Norwegian (or any language really), especially as refugees and immigrants that would probably rather have chosen to continue to live in their country if the current conditions weren't so bad. We really shouldn't underestimate the challenges one is facing while learning a language, especially the older we are. Keep that in mind!



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▲ Listening to the song Says by Nils Frahm.
▲ Using my new small markers in pastel colors. Sooo pretty.
▲ Taking pictures of happy moments and pretty surroundings.


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(Roughly translated)
/ Eat well, laugh often, love greatly.


▲ Taking short naps on my new yoga mat. Hopefully I'll end up doing lots of yoga on it too.
▲ Appreciating the place where I live. The little things that make a big difference, as well as the big things. Everything that makes it a nice and good place to be. There must be some reason I always feel like staying at home rather than going out. I can for example read and write in my books, with my feet kept warm under the blanket and soothing music filling the room. When I think about it... Why ever go out?
▲ Testing out new things. Like for example foods such as jackfruit and this umami spice I found today at a foreign store not too far away from where I live.


GIRLBOSS QUOTE: The most effective way to do it, is to do it. - Amelia Earhart // Inspirational quotes


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▲ Making new songs and playing on my lovely guitar. Who would have known I'd miss my guitar SO MUCH here in Caen, before my mom came here and brought it to me... #supermom
▲ Eating bread with vegan butter and jam, or with peanut butter, vegan chocolate spread and banana. Yummy. Or 'miam, miam' as they say here, haha.
▲ Eating lots of clementines, that I buy at the market on Saturdays.



Eat pussy not animals


▲ Reading "Le Vganisme" by Giroux and Larue, where the last one mentioned is teaching literature and vegan studies at UCSB in California (me-want-to-study-veganism-yes-please).
▲ Reading all the other unread books I have here. With subjects like sleep, how our brain works and how we think, not to mention the french books I've bought here such as Harry Potter, Donald Duck, Asterix and last but not least Wall-e. So we're talking books in all sorts of lengths, languages and genres.
▲ Talking, reading and listening to french and developing my language skills, step by step.
▲ Reading in my daily journal (in which I write a few sentences every day) what I did half a year ago and thinking back to how different things were then. If it was better or worse is not always easy to say, but just knowing how things turned out as opposed to what I was picturing is always interesting and maybe even eye-opening. Reminding myself of problems I used to have but no longer have are actually quite motivating. Also reminding myself of people who were and are in my life that I have to keep in contact with, and of course also remind myself of all the good moments and events I've been so lucky to be a part of. 


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▲ Using bookmarks from my new bookmark calendar, which is really for 2018, but I couldn't wait reminding myself of the messages they have written on them. My favorites at the moment must be the ones picturing monks and asian landscapes with the messages "Be here now" and "Be kind to all creatures. This is the true religion. - Buddha" written in the corner. 
▲ Lighting scented candles that I bought with my mother and my sister when they visited me here. They made a really big effort to make it as cozy as possible for me here, and things were looking so much better when they left, as opposed to when they came.


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(Roughly translated)
/ Either it will work out fine, or it will pass.


▲ Celebrating Christmas with my family in Norway, with snow and skiing and a Christmas tree and Christmas stockings (with Samtiden in it? Hint hint mamma) and vegan Christmas food and watching nostalgic Christmas films.
▲ Listening to inspiring podcasts, such as "mentaltrener podcasten" that my super awesome sister has recommended me to try.
▲ Meditating to the app "Headspace" that I tried for the first time today. So far I like it. I've been wanting to meditate for as long as I can remember but I find it a bit hard to actually sit down and do it, you know? I could probably use a little guiding in the beginning at least. Just to get things rolling.



(Roughly translated)
/ Knowing, thinking, dreaming - it's all there. - Victor Hugo
/ Happiness can sometimes be hidden in the unknown. - Victor Hugo


And more generally...
▲ Feeling the support of the ones who are closest to me and never forget to thank them and tell them how much they mean to me and how much it means to me what they do for me and that they are there for me and love me. Family isn't always easy, but I am without a doubt very lucky to have such a caring family, that's for sure.
▲ Being with people that are open minded, kind and generous. People that takes initiative and invites me to their home and looks out for me.
▲ Being confident with myself, my opinions and my beliefs, knowing that no one is just like me. 
▲ Having conversations with people who shares my point of view, although it might be something most people are more or less skeptical to. 


(Roughly translated)
/ It's a lovely day to be happy.


▲ Falling for people from distance, and still appreciate the curiosity and the excitement without having to do anything about it.
▲ Reminding myself that I'd rather regret something I've done, than regret something I haven't done.
▲ Figuring out how to get from one place to another and finding my way around, being someplace new.



▲ Learning and discovering things I didn't know the day before. That I do more or less every day here, both when it comes to language and also the French culture and their way of doing things. What they think of as a normal and absolute way to behave and act is really interesting, and it is also making me realize quite a few things about the Norwegian culture as well.
▲ Finding new spots that I know I will return to in the future. 
▲ Visiting new places, meeting new people and getting new perspectives.


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▲ Seeing people reading books in stead of sitting on their phone.
▲ Waking up knowing I don't have to get up quite yet, so there's still time to lie under the covers and appreciate the warmth under there a little while longer.
▲ Enjoying the warmth from the hot water when I'm showering, especially if it's early in the morning. 
▲ Making breakfast in such a manner that I can't wait to get out of bed.
▲ Making the bed so that every time I come home the whole room automatically looks so much more nice and tidy.


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▲ Falling asleep the second my head is lying on the pillow.
▲ Looking at the flimmers of sun on the walls and furniture in my little house, with dancing trees and leaves contouring the movement of the sunbeam.
▲ Getting the sense of achievement when I work with a bad habit for a long time and I finally manage to get around it. After ignoring all those thoughts that made it hard for me to change my behavior, which are now backing off in the favor of new thoughts that works with me, and not against me.
▲ Watching documentaries, series and films about interesting subjects, widening my perspective.


This show addresses real life and the struggles of being a teenager as well as mental illnesses, sexuality, and slut shaming. I'm in love.


▲ Knowing I contributed to making the world a better place, each and every day. (#govegan)
▲ Not even trying to find vegetarians, vegans and such, they just pop up all over the place.
▲ Avoiding too much time used on digital medias, but still appreciate apps such as 30/30, Streaks, Chore checklist and The Darwin Challenge, plus many other helpful and inspiring apps.



Everything is gonna be alright ...


▲ Doing more things out of lust, and not out of obligation.
▲ Going to concerts so inspiring that my fingers just can't wait to play more guitar, and my creativity can't wait to come up with more ideas for new songs.
▲ Yoga. Need I say more? I mean, I can even chose the type of yoga that doesn't even feel like training and still really feel it the day after! And of course: Savasana. Oh, the bliss.
▲ Meditate to reduce stress and anxiety, sleep better, develop creativity, strengthen my memory and ability to concentrate, be less tense, get more energy and find more joy in life (kind of quoting a brochure I found today for someone who is teaching people how to meditate, I must admit).


?"Let go of comparing ? Let go of competing ? Let go of judgments ? Let go of anger ? Let go of regrets ?

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▲ Going to interesting events, especially if they involve vegan food or subjects. #veganismislife #veganhashtags
▲ Socialize and get to know people better, make friends. #veganfriends
▲ Feel more satisfied and happier. Feel like I'm good enough and relax more. Live more. Clich, but true. #happyvegan


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So, when will there be so many positive moments and feelings and all that that it will be enough? Is being happy not depending on positive moments, but rather the way you work with your thoughts and what you think about the things that happens to you? I hope a little meditation, a little yoga and having a little stronger social network here will help me towards feeling more satisfied with my life. I'm not saying I'm not satisfied, though I am troubled by the things I find challenging throughout the day. Still I know I'm super lucky. I know I have a million things to be grateful for, which I hope I can find the best ways possible to remind myself of, as often as possible. 






_photo by: Birgitte ♥ Sunniva Halstensen

I did my best gig ever last night. Benjamin, Bjrn and I was Eline Thorp's support on the concert she had yesterday, and it went so well. We played three songs, "Weight of the World", "Easier said than done" and "Eyes of Pain" - two new songs and one old. I'm so glad I had the opportunity to play these songs with the best bassist and drummer I could ever imagine. I'm so excited to continue writing and playing and rehearsing and everything now! Especially after I saw Hedvig Mollestad Trio last thursday on Sinus. It was amazing! I'm officially a huge fan of Hedvig, ahhh, loved her.

Sunniva Halstensen.

Du mamma mi

Mammaen min er mor til meg og min sster. De er de to viktigste kvinnene i mitt liv.

Mammaen min liker Keiservarden. Her er hun p vei opp i r 2008, samme veien hun gikk da som hun gr n.

Mammaen min er forelsket. Her er mamma og hennes lovende forlovede.

Mammaen min er sporty, s hun tok meg med p sykkeltur i Normandie, Frankrike, i fjor sommer.

Mammaen min er s fin at hun kunne vrt modell.

Mammaen min er st nr hun sover. I jentekollektivet hadde vi en katt som likte sove middagshvil med mamma,
det gjorde jeg ogs da jeg var liten.

Mammaen min liker br. Det gjr jeg ogs. Her er mamma med meg og plukker blbr.Jeg foretrekker
spise dem, framfor plukke dem. Derfor er det fint ha en s flink blbrplukker som mamma.

Mammaen min er s musikalsk at det har smittet over p meg. Her har jeg tatt et supersexy, long distance "vind-
i-hret-bilde" av henne p ei strand i Lithauen, der vi var p kortur for mange r siden. Hun er en flink dirigent og
sanger og organist og pianist og musiker og lektor i kirkemusikk.

Mammaen min smiler mye. Derfor gjr jeg det ogs. Kanskje er det derfor jeg begynte ta s mye bilder, fordi jeg
mtte fotografere det fine smilet hennes.

Mammaen min er s viktig for meg at jeg ikke kan se for meg et liv uten henne. Det er s uvirkelig at jeg tenker at
det ikke gr an at hun ikke skulle hatt den rollen hun har i livet mitt. Derfor tar jeg henne kanskje for gitt, men jeg
skal alltid ha nattaklem nr jeg legger meg. Og s sier jeg at jeg er glad i henne, og hun sier at hun er glad i meg.
Det er jeg glad for.

Mammaen min er snill fordi hun skjnner hvor glad jeg er i Frankrike, og har tatt meg med dit to ganger allerede.
I sommer betaler hun mye for at jeg skal f vre der p sprkkursreise i fire uker, og da kommer jeg til savne
henne. Da blir det ekstra godt se henne igjen nr jeg kommer hjem igjen.

Sulla meg litt, du mamma mi. Skal du f snor p trya di. Vil du ha gul eller vil du ha bl?
Vil du ha blanke skal du det f, p trya di, du mamma mi.

Thank You For The Music

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I remember my last years birthdaypresent. It was my beloved el-guitar. I wonder how different my life would have been if it wasn't for that gift. I can do nothing but thank those who gave me the best gift I could have got, at the exact right time of my life. If they hadn't given it to me, who knows? Maybe I wouldn't go to school everyday knowing I had the music to cheer me up, make me feel good about myself and who I am as a person. Maybe I'd never get to know all the fantastic people I've met so often in the "music-hallway", the past six months. Who also cheer me up and makes me feel good. I'd say thank you for the music, for giving it to me. (don't worry, I won't continue quoting ABBA's lyrics. But it is true, though.)


Sunniva Halstensen.

_Roses and snow/the bus

_photo/edit by me 2013

I love living so close to the city. Not having to take the bus all the time like most people I know, is perhaps the best thing. Allthough I sometimes wish I could take the bus more often. What better place is there than on the bus when you want to just sit and do nothing, listen to music, maybe check instagram and look at inspiring pictures on your phone or something. Just trying to make time go faster so you can reach your destination point as soon as possible. That's the thing about sitting on the bus, there's nothing you can do to make time go any faster. There is no reason feeling guilty about all the things you should've done. Chores, homework and so on, it has to wait until you're home. All you can do is sit and wait for the right bus stop. Suddenly you see someone you know and you talk all the way home. You can end up meeting people you wouldn't neccessarily have talked to, if it wasn't for that bus you both took. Or someone you used to talk to all the time, that you haven't had the chance to see lately. The memories you remember, all the laughs and jokes you had together. Moments like that is what buses are for. No rush, no distractions. Just people waiting for their bus stop, so they can continue on with their busy lives. As if a bus trip is an inevitable break in an other wise stressful day. At least for those who have to take the bus.

Sunniva Halstensen.

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_photo/edit by me Photos from November 2013


When you're still waiting for the snow to fall

It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all


Those Christmas lights light up the street

Maybe they'll bring him back to me

Then all my troubles will be gone

Oh Christmas lights, keep shining on


Oh, Christmas lights light up the street

Light up the fireworks in me

May all your troubles soon be gone

Those Christmas lights keep shining on


Still waiting for the snow to fall
It doesn't really feel like *winter at all

- Coldplay 


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Let's say I'll be famous one day. In the age of 25, touring with my band, playing on my el-guitar (and I'll be good at it), singing my songs and have fun with it as long as it lasts. Am I willing to do what it takes? Yes. Will I have fun while doing it? Yes.

I remember the concert Sigur Rs had in November in Oslo. It was almost like a show, everything was planned down to the very last detail. The music of course was great, I've listened to them for as many years as I can remember. But the things that made it almost look like a show were these lightbulbs on the stage and the film that went on in the background. The thing about the lightbulbs was that as the music changed, their brightness changed as well. When they played the light followed their sounds. I had never seen anything like it. And the film. Ah, it was so beautiful. I admired the ideas behind the shootings of the films and the editing, wishing I had made it all myself. Moments and beautiful details, so well put together to be flashed in front of us on the widest screen I had ever seen.

What if I could have a show like that some day? Wouldn't that be amazing? I started thinking about it when I saw these pictures. As an artist on stage you can do whatever you want and no one can say anything. One thing is the stage and all, but just think about the make up and clothing! I especially liked the silver makeup on the last image. Who knows, maybe I'll try it out on stage some day?

Let's say I'll be a famous musician one day. Just the thought of it makes me excited.

Sunniva Halstensen.

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Relax;the mountain will come to you